Yesssss this. It drives me crazy how people don't understand why Yaguruma acts the way he does towards Kageyama, because THIS. Even to the very end, Yaguruma never wanted to destroy Kageyama - he made Kageyama see he'd already destroyed himself, but as soon as Kageyama realized that, Yaguruma took back the role he had before in their relationship, consciously or not.
And the whole thing with not seeking false lights was always about protecting the little monster he still felt responsible for creating, not torturing him for revenge. Of all the things Yaguruma was, he never managed to be uncaring. The tragedy was that the more he tried to save Kageyama from completely losing himself, the more he pushed them both over towards their end.
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Date: 2009-02-15 04:16 am (UTC)And the whole thing with not seeking false lights was always about protecting the little monster he still felt responsible for creating, not torturing him for revenge. Of all the things Yaguruma was, he never managed to be uncaring. The tragedy was that the more he tried to save Kageyama from completely losing himself, the more he pushed them both over towards their end.